For you in my prayer

It is sad that you had to undergo the pain but believe me, ours is just as bad if not worse.

The difference is how we handle the pain. You prefer to ignore it, deny it exist and you clearly try to walk away from it.

As for me, yes the initial impact was bad. If you had felt the way you did, just imagine it around 10 fold. The shiver down the spine, the cold sweat. But I had to steady myself as fast as I can. I try to recover as fast as I can. I stood still and think fast what I need to do and how to react.

After I prayed, I know I had to steady the other half that is just as badly struck as me. I had to make sure I am steady and be the rock for him to lean on. I need to support him in places where he lacks. He may be stronger in many ways but these type of experience, I think I have more than him. The pain, the fear, the hopelessness.

I next know that I have to face the problem.More important to help him come to terms with the situation.I have to hold him up, help him see the response he need to make, and stood by him as he does it.

In places when I cannot help physically, I prayed and prayed while he does the needful.

That is the main difference between you and me. I have my faith Over the last few years, my faith has grown leaps and bounds.I fall back on Him.and I surrender all to Him

I next have to look into others that are implicated. That is something you need not do.I have to make sure they are standing upright and do not go into despair. I also need to mediate between all involved

A few days later, I know I need to do more to glue things together. So I divert mine and his attention. I involved myself with other more productive activities like baking and cleaning. It doesn't make the problem go away and it doesn't solve the problem but at least we have some rest from it and these activities bring a smile on others.

I do not run away, I face it upfront and I make sure I do any small thing that is required to help however small it may be like clicking a 'like' and typing a letter.

We talk it out when we feel bad. I make him talk about it so that it does not congest him.I know I cannot afford to have him falling.

You need to face it, help her to face it and help her stand up.

Sometimes when you face it and get involved in it, you also learn. You get to see how others handle it. You see the ups and of course the downs too. But the important thing is, you will not feel alone and you know that many are fighting it.You begin to understand the term 'support group' You also then see that you are not the worst and you learn to care and love more.

I am blessed because I know my God will not give me anything I can't handle. I also know He is in the know and He is there to watch over the whole episode. I also have faith that whatever the outcome, it is His will and He has greater plans that I can't see but completely trust in Him. I pray that you will come to know these words and I pray you will allow His grace to flow into your life too in due time.