Having resolved to make a stronger effort to put aside unpleasant thoughts and be more upbeat, I defy my lovely daughter's orders and did some baking while she was having classes. Wow what a stare I got from her when she came back. Lucky the new recipe turned out well and it soften her look when I quickly pop one into her mouth.
Savoury Onion Biscuits.
150 g butter
60 g icing sugar
1/2 tsp salt
2 tbsp egg
120 g nuts grounded with
30 g fried shallots
1/4 tsp bicarbonate of soda
260 g flour
2 tbsp custard powder
50 cookies baked at 170 deg Celsius for 20 to 25 minutes
Result ...... guarantee to soften sharp angry looks!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Being Rich
Yesterday at approximately 7 pm, I was talking to someone who has just bought a RM 2 million apartment in London in anticipation of his son's education there next year. The parents plan to pop over every alternate months to check on the child so the apartment will mean 'savings' on hotel bills!This is similar to a case I know of in which the father bought a house in LA when the son went over there for tertiary education. My first reaction is .... wow so this is how the rich move around. And I thought that getting prepacked meals, boiling water weekly and getting an air cond room for my son in Seremban was over indulgence!Phew, what one can do if one has the money.I remember when we were poor self supporting undergraduates in the late 70's, my friend and I used to see this shop in Sungai Wang with beautiful dresses. We told ourselves that we too could be elegant and beautiful if money allows it. We said that when we could effort it, we will one day come back to the shop and be proud owners one of those dresses. Well, I don't know about her, but years later, when money permits, the thought was no longer important. Nice to dream but never a goal.
4 hours later, I was reading the Star newspaper ( yes, this retiree have no time for the papers till 11 pm!), I came across a Fathers' day article . 3 fathers of cerebral palsy children were featured.One even had 2 children with CP.In that moment, my heart went all out for the parents. They have my full respect. I could imagine the pain of finding out and the physical and mental strength they must have to take care of the children. They are definitely fabulous parents.
And then I realise that I too is rich, so very rich. I have 3 wonderful normal children living in a family full with love and care for each other. I too am a multimillionaire.
4 hours later, I was reading the Star newspaper ( yes, this retiree have no time for the papers till 11 pm!), I came across a Fathers' day article . 3 fathers of cerebral palsy children were featured.One even had 2 children with CP.In that moment, my heart went all out for the parents. They have my full respect. I could imagine the pain of finding out and the physical and mental strength they must have to take care of the children. They are definitely fabulous parents.
And then I realise that I too is rich, so very rich. I have 3 wonderful normal children living in a family full with love and care for each other. I too am a multimillionaire.
Mid Year resolution
For the last one and a half month, I had only been able to pop in awhile but never too long.From today onwards, I am going to make a stronger effort.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Person and heart free or not?
Seem that things are never ending. My health is not improving as fast as I hope it to be, movements in the family, major decisions made last week, Au starting Semester 2, Ed going for his Pead's exam.
This is the case of what mum used to say "Person free, heart not free" translated from Chinese. This means that physically not having much to do but so much is happening and it gave cause to emotional unrest. Praying and letting Him take over helped a lot but the human factor keep resurfacing .Gotta learn how to push that down!
More details in the next blog and keeping fingers crossed that it will be within the next few days.
This is the case of what mum used to say "Person free, heart not free" translated from Chinese. This means that physically not having much to do but so much is happening and it gave cause to emotional unrest. Praying and letting Him take over helped a lot but the human factor keep resurfacing .Gotta learn how to push that down!
More details in the next blog and keeping fingers crossed that it will be within the next few days.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Praying for a peaceful week.
So many things have been happening the last 2 weeks. Family members, in-law, nieces, my health both physical and mental stress. Well things are calmer this week though it is just the start. Like the countries economy ,I hope it has bottom out or at least if not out, let it go through a correction factor so that I can breath. (wow my stock broker sifu aka my only brother in law should be proud of my usage of 'economical' terms!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Away from Cyberspace
Been nearly 10 days away from the cyberspace.
So I finally got a second opinion and last week went for a diagnostic test. Had to be hospitalised and undergo general anaesthetic.After that, had been waiting patiently 8 days for the laboratory results. In the meantime, big sister did a good job of feeding me with confinement food. Au was a wonderful substitute mummy and ran the house with only my oral guidance.
On the bed having minimum movement make one do a lot of reflections.
On doctors.
It is so sad that he is a typical male, old man, mercenary and egoistic.But he has good points too so I just had to grin and go along with his mannerism.What is it with these old doctors ? Someone need to insist on them going for an hour talk on people relationship. Well, at least this one didn't sound like it is terminal for me. As a matter of fact, didn't even want to mention the word cancer.And he reassure that for every problem there is a solution. So I guess one can't have everything!That brings to mind the sad state of patients who can only afford Government aided hospital. From no-choice-cancer-patient to no-worry-we-have-a solution-to-everything. What a difference. and What a price difference too: free to RM3500 (to date)that's reality for you.
On hospital
Please please please don't encourage hospital PR officers to call 'just to have a courtesy call'. I had one and 2 reminders for my appointment. And imagine the stress I felt each time I answer a call that say, 'hello ,I am from hospital -----' You can hear my heartbeat !Don't they know that they represent bad news! It is like getting a phone calls from the mortuary!On the other hand, they are trying to make a difference but not a very good one only.
On siblings
My late mother should be proud to know that in giving us 5 siblings each, she has actually inculcated in us care for each other when the time arises.Every time without fail, in times of need, we are always there for each other (on the other hand during happier times, we might not even see each other for maybe years!)For the next generation, siblings are less,hopefully cousins get closer.I for one, couldn't see my nieces and nephews as nothing but next to my own.Thank you to my dear dear brothers and sister for the care and concern you shown for the past 2 weeks.
My children and hubby
These 10 days help me to realise a lot about them.About accepting them, and the character they represent.Loving them without reservations. Realising that they are independent for their age and should I have to leave, they will survive.
Now that cancer is not in the list, it is time to take those expensive medication for improved health. With God's grace, I should be much better in 6 months time to do more things
Thank you Lord for loving me and showering me with all the blessings.
So I finally got a second opinion and last week went for a diagnostic test. Had to be hospitalised and undergo general anaesthetic.After that, had been waiting patiently 8 days for the laboratory results. In the meantime, big sister did a good job of feeding me with confinement food. Au was a wonderful substitute mummy and ran the house with only my oral guidance.
On the bed having minimum movement make one do a lot of reflections.
On doctors.
It is so sad that he is a typical male, old man, mercenary and egoistic.But he has good points too so I just had to grin and go along with his mannerism.What is it with these old doctors ? Someone need to insist on them going for an hour talk on people relationship. Well, at least this one didn't sound like it is terminal for me. As a matter of fact, didn't even want to mention the word cancer.And he reassure that for every problem there is a solution. So I guess one can't have everything!That brings to mind the sad state of patients who can only afford Government aided hospital. From no-choice-cancer-patient to no-worry-we-have-a solution-to-everything. What a difference. and What a price difference too: free to RM3500 (to date)that's reality for you.
On hospital
Please please please don't encourage hospital PR officers to call 'just to have a courtesy call'. I had one and 2 reminders for my appointment. And imagine the stress I felt each time I answer a call that say, 'hello ,I am from hospital -----' You can hear my heartbeat !Don't they know that they represent bad news! It is like getting a phone calls from the mortuary!On the other hand, they are trying to make a difference but not a very good one only.
On siblings
My late mother should be proud to know that in giving us 5 siblings each, she has actually inculcated in us care for each other when the time arises.Every time without fail, in times of need, we are always there for each other (on the other hand during happier times, we might not even see each other for maybe years!)For the next generation, siblings are less,hopefully cousins get closer.I for one, couldn't see my nieces and nephews as nothing but next to my own.Thank you to my dear dear brothers and sister for the care and concern you shown for the past 2 weeks.
My children and hubby
These 10 days help me to realise a lot about them.About accepting them, and the character they represent.Loving them without reservations. Realising that they are independent for their age and should I have to leave, they will survive.
Now that cancer is not in the list, it is time to take those expensive medication for improved health. With God's grace, I should be much better in 6 months time to do more things
Thank you Lord for loving me and showering me with all the blessings.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Thoughts
The past one week has been a week of happenings.helping a friend by coaching her daughter for a few hours (doing something I still love), going to a private institute to give my comments on a discipline module set up (this brought back a lot memories of my last 5 years in the service, doing something I was passionate about yet no regrets taking early retirement), hearing my doctor giving some very disturbing news concerning my health, being there for LL's wedding, and meeting up with the family members including cousins(bringing back a lot of memories while analysing family setups).
In the family front, went through the EOS exam for Au and mid term papers for Ed. Although I need not worry about their attitudes and sense of responsibilities, I couldn't stop being a mum so I too 'sat through' both the exams.Next, certain comments and actions o'f his' and then 'hers' got me rather disturbed making me upset.
Lastly yesterday the children celebrated a belated mother's day with we with a breakfast in bed, spending a fun day out as a family ending with a lovely dinner with my sister and brother and their spouses.
Right now, sitting on my bed listening to the murmurs of the night, all kind of thoughts goes through the little brain of mind. Thoughts of the different types of love we have, counting my blessings,wondering what the future holds both near and far.It is times like this that I need took a leaf out of Ed's method of saying a prayer closing one's eyes and then just walking straight.
Good night. God Bless.
In the family front, went through the EOS exam for Au and mid term papers for Ed. Although I need not worry about their attitudes and sense of responsibilities, I couldn't stop being a mum so I too 'sat through' both the exams.Next, certain comments and actions o'f his' and then 'hers' got me rather disturbed making me upset.
Lastly yesterday the children celebrated a belated mother's day with we with a breakfast in bed, spending a fun day out as a family ending with a lovely dinner with my sister and brother and their spouses.
Right now, sitting on my bed listening to the murmurs of the night, all kind of thoughts goes through the little brain of mind. Thoughts of the different types of love we have, counting my blessings,wondering what the future holds both near and far.It is times like this that I need took a leaf out of Ed's method of saying a prayer closing one's eyes and then just walking straight.
Good night. God Bless.
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