Feelings

Looking at 2 books at the moment.

1. Her sister's Keeper
About a younger sister conceived to save the elder sister with leukemia

2. The diving Bell and the butterfly
A 43 year old french editor who wrote the book after he was permanantly paralyzed communicating by blinking his left eye.

You wake up every morning saying your thanks and then wondering why are you talking about your miniute problem with Him. Being human, our miniute problem is still a 'big' problem to us. But you know deep down, you are blessed and you then say a prayer for all those who are in need of Him.

Why I was absent the last month.

The last 5 weeks has been a busy busy time with so much to squeeze in to so 'short' hours(I won't say few hours as I find it lengthy to explain to others why a retiree has fewer hours than others).

As Au started 4th semester last week, it involves even more movement and less manpower to help in the home chores.

Ed has been so tired over his last posting and we had been making weekly family trips to Seremban to give him moral, spiritual and physical support.

The new treadmill came in last Saturday and I couldn't wait to go back to my walking regime again. That means another hour needed.

With Sunday's worshipping, (and we have been attending FGA, ACTS Summit and ACTS Nilai), Sunday is also shortened by half a day.

But am I complaining? NO, I am definitely not. I never truly understood what it meant to have the ability to do things until now. What it meant to say
'Iam glad I am breathing today so that I can do the endless things on my to-do list.
I am glad I have the emotional and physical health to do all the chores of the home.
It is wonderful to hear the snores of the guy next to me though it mean I can sleep the night thro.
My muscles are aching but I am thankful my chidren are near enough and appreciative enough for me to cook for them.
I feel so blessed that I can afford to bring things to the home.
I don't get all worked up when the neighbour dirties my floor with his jet washing and painting cuz I am glad I have the strength and has a washing machine to help me.'
And much much more.

I also can't help smiling when a paster said he can't explain why some people are more blessed than others. I now know what he said was right. While he is blessed all through, I know now I definitely need to go into the house of the Lord and proclaim before I am blessed! : )

I need to declare He works in mysterious ways and I know now there is no need to question why.I am taking baby steps in so many things but I am learning. Blessings comes in so many ways and channels and they also includes friends like KP, G, JL who feels I am important enough to share their life decisions, TW, AZ and PW who said the right words to bring the spirits high when I am low. And the best part is that all things was only possible through His grace.

A New Beginning

It was a good Sunday morning. You know you took the right path and you feel good about it.

You also know that to walk the path need sopport,strength, faith, wisdom and courage from all and especially Him.

You feel like a baby taking your first steps. You feel lost and incompetent but you will walk on.Those were the days when daddy and mummy are all ready to catch you when you fall. This time round, you depend on Almighty.

I no longer question why. I can't see beyond my feet but I trust the hand that leads me will do the rest.

OK I got Your point. I will fullfill my part. Stay with me and gave me strength, faith and courage. Hold my hand as I walk down the path.

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So I see. Life decided I need to be shakened again. It has to nudge me further. It is said that He won't push you where you can't take it.
Sometimes I am not too sure. Grasping for straws again.

Up and Down

Life is like a yo yo. One moment it goes up and the next it goes down. As a pessimist, when you are down, you think you will never goes up. and when you are up, you wonder when you will move down. In the end, you become a worrier.and you know that it will affect others who love you so you keep it to yourself. You fight to get out of the cage At times you seem to have found the combination but then again the gate doesn't open well. Before you could push it open, it shuts up again
You walk round and round You try and try and know you mustn't give up.Sometimes you feel tired At times you decide to call the locksmith but you are not sure if he too can do the job.
Nevertheless we will carry on trying.

Braised Chicken Wings?

If you notice the time, this is actually an odd hour for me to write. Unfortunately after being reprimanded by my little girl for not being able to reproduce some recipes, I am forced to be a more disciplined mother ! Boo Hoo Hoo

Ok here goes. 10 chicken wings came to my kitchen
Ten little winglets (the bony part lah ) was cut off
Ten wings went into a container with
salt
pepper,
chinese wine
And stayed there for 3 days,

Out came from the fridge one afternoon
Supposed to be grilled
But as the evening unfold,
Honey was added to the wings and into the kuali they went to be pan fried
Adter 10 minutes, I decided this inexperienced chef might not be able to identify the cooking time,
So water was poured into kuali! (smart ain't I)
But then taste might not be so good
So out come the wine and some oyster sauce ( a little bit otherwise too salty!)

When chicken is cooked tasting time!
Hmmmmmmm
taste is nothing special
So.........

Go to the fridge and saw half a lemon
Juice it and add to the sauce
Add a dash of sugar

And Viola chicken wings my style.