Look like 3.30 am is a common time for me to blog lately. Truly I can't sleep. Things and thoughts fly through my mind like jet planes and causes a haze so thick and I know I need to put it to rest. But it is never easy.
So many things go through my thoughts that I know not where to start. She left and I prayed that she is OK at this transition time.
He worked till he knows not time and day what more eat and I know he is tired. And pray for his physical strength and his faith.Gong through his pain and not being there physically to help, which mum is at peace.
My health is playing up with me. An old problem has to surface and insist on giving me pain, lost and concern. Again I pray.I know He hears and I believe He has His reasons but I am tired. I hold on fast and tight but I am tired.
A shock is a shock. It does not come any softer just because you are more experience and ready. From day one, you never let me rest and I wonder when can I do so. It is not that I don't want to let you go but I have my doubts just as any normal mother do. I pray as I have been praying for years .You hear ; You will respond at Your time but I am getting weaker.
If there are times in one's life that one is pushed to the wall, I have plenty of those.I surrender and I commit to You but in the meantime,can I rest.Every time I want to rest You shook me up.How long can I take this? How long do You want it to last? I am tired. I need Your strength. Again I know You know. What next?
