Thank You Lord

I have just came back from a follow-up checkup with my gynaecologist. It is good to know that after 6 months of medication and spending RM1K on it, my fibroids are officially gone. Otherwise imagine going through the surgical process of removing my womb which was suggested 6 months ago by another doctor.Both the doctors I believe have done their best in their ability to advice and it is up to me to make the final decision. For now I am happy with mine. Now to wait for my body to give me a quiet peaceful menopause.

In the last 6 months, from the first doctor to the second's D and C. I remembered waiting for the result fearing cancer that was mooted by the first doctor. I also remember thinking at that time what if I was awarded the big C.

I admit it was scary. I started to question myself if I was ready to leave my children. I started thinking deep and long about each and everyone of them including my husband. In a lady's life , the most important people are her children and her husband.(at least to me) When I found out that I was cleared, it was a big relief. But my thoughts didn't stop there.

Over the months, together with other happenings,I began to think of questions which includes whether I was ready to let go, should I let go, is it time to let go, are they ready to be independent. To whom am I letting them off to.What is my stand when they find their life long partner, where do I stand if they are caught between me and their spouses. I had the chance to discuss many of the answers with my chidren and I hope that if they need to, my thoughts will help them to go through certain times of their life.

At the end, I feel at ease that I have shared with them. it is now for them to take note and remember. (don't worry, if I change my mind, I will let them know too : ) )
All these helps me to realise many things, put them into thoughts and words, make certain decisions about my life and once again, thank you Lord, I now see Your reason for all that I am going through.